Given a change in context my new blog address is:
http://www.memyselfandharpic.blogspot.com
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Re birth
I started the compilation of this blog intending to capture what I believed would be a web diary of experiences & feelings during my stay in a magical land. The last two words are not meant to suggest that the place was a cauldron of pleasure inducing phenomenon, but a place that helped put things in perspective.
I will not eulogize the system, and say all in all it was a nice time. There were times when the metaphorical nadir was brushing against my face, and all voices of sanity seemed so far away. There were also times where a sense of relief was the most welcome feeling of the lot. I find it highly cliched when all people want to talk about a place when they leave it is about how wonderful it is, forgetting the times when it gave them hell.
There was a survey handed out to us at the beginning of our course which asked us to rank our preferences in life (money, marriage, status, profile etc). The survey was intended to draw results on how the three letter, two year sojourn would turn our lives around. My ranking never changed. I don't think it ever will.
This ends my life as a student of management, and starts another as a salesman for cleaning solutions.
I will not eulogize the system, and say all in all it was a nice time. There were times when the metaphorical nadir was brushing against my face, and all voices of sanity seemed so far away. There were also times where a sense of relief was the most welcome feeling of the lot. I find it highly cliched when all people want to talk about a place when they leave it is about how wonderful it is, forgetting the times when it gave them hell.
There was a survey handed out to us at the beginning of our course which asked us to rank our preferences in life (money, marriage, status, profile etc). The survey was intended to draw results on how the three letter, two year sojourn would turn our lives around. My ranking never changed. I don't think it ever will.
This ends my life as a student of management, and starts another as a salesman for cleaning solutions.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Humanoid
" Kadavul paathi, Mirigam paathi;
Kalanthu seytha, Kalavai naan,"
- Excerpt from Aalavandhan (Abhay in Hindi)
"Squelch". The sickening sound of bone being crunched, and red elixir being spewed; echoed across the street that was fast asleep past midnight. The white rhino traveling along the road at a three digit speed crushed the white feline unable to change its trajectory. The last impression on the brain powering the gallop was that of the fear stricken eyes of its latest victim; the clear look of unavoidable death. The brain digested the exit of another 10 kilograms of matter vaporised from the earth with a wave of regret, and pushed the accelerator to the floor. There is no lactic acid which can accumulate in this rhino, it just runs.
The brain argues that it is the same as crushing a mosquito, a life is a life you see. But there is a tinge of guilt that just refuses to wash away. Mr. Johnnie Walker might be in demand if rest eludes it any longer. The brain really has a copious stock of pleasure hormones. A heightened sense of identity, pleasures both materialistic and base are not foreign entities any longer. The brain at times wonders if it is close to that hypothetically impossible state of satisfaction, but then the category of satisfaction widens and we're back to square one.
This would be the last post on an odyssey that culminated in a manner I did not dream off. I never dreamed driving into those gates that an ever elusive Rank 1 was possible. Neither did I dream that the cost would be the severance of a multitude of nerve endings from the large cardiac muscle. I don't really have the guts to say," Back to square one, I am a nice guy".
Praveen Dwarakanath
PGPABM - Topper of the Batch
Indian Institute of Management Lucknow
Kalanthu seytha, Kalavai naan,"
- Excerpt from Aalavandhan (Abhay in Hindi)
"Squelch". The sickening sound of bone being crunched, and red elixir being spewed; echoed across the street that was fast asleep past midnight. The white rhino traveling along the road at a three digit speed crushed the white feline unable to change its trajectory. The last impression on the brain powering the gallop was that of the fear stricken eyes of its latest victim; the clear look of unavoidable death. The brain digested the exit of another 10 kilograms of matter vaporised from the earth with a wave of regret, and pushed the accelerator to the floor. There is no lactic acid which can accumulate in this rhino, it just runs.
The brain argues that it is the same as crushing a mosquito, a life is a life you see. But there is a tinge of guilt that just refuses to wash away. Mr. Johnnie Walker might be in demand if rest eludes it any longer. The brain really has a copious stock of pleasure hormones. A heightened sense of identity, pleasures both materialistic and base are not foreign entities any longer. The brain at times wonders if it is close to that hypothetically impossible state of satisfaction, but then the category of satisfaction widens and we're back to square one.
This would be the last post on an odyssey that culminated in a manner I did not dream off. I never dreamed driving into those gates that an ever elusive Rank 1 was possible. Neither did I dream that the cost would be the severance of a multitude of nerve endings from the large cardiac muscle. I don't really have the guts to say," Back to square one, I am a nice guy".
Praveen Dwarakanath
PGPABM - Topper of the Batch
Indian Institute of Management Lucknow
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Judgement day
It is that time of the year when all that one thinks about is placements. Yes the date is just 2 days away. Unlike last year, not too many people are seeing green and companies are using it to their advantage. After a long time, today I decided not to think like a MBA; a company came on campus and offered us 8 lakhs(Hyderabad posting) to sell seeds. Now, lets be clear... its not too bad an offer - I would probably make more that what I end up elsewhere; but the company's ppt ensured my opting out of the process. I believe I am worth something, the worth cannot be quantified by just money or a profile but must be accompanied by a strong feeling of accomplishment. I will apply only to extremely selective companies.
There are many who feel I am being foolish in following my heart in times when capital is scarce. I have something that nobody does; I have a strong family backbone that will see me through the worst of times, and a darling who loves the recession as she is getting 70% off in Globus.
There are historic letters which we have been told of, letters which change phases of time and people's thoughts. Here is a letter written by my dad to me the day I missed the McKinsey Shortlist (copy marked to mom):
There are many who feel I am being foolish in following my heart in times when capital is scarce. I have something that nobody does; I have a strong family backbone that will see me through the worst of times, and a darling who loves the recession as she is getting 70% off in Globus.
There are historic letters which we have been told of, letters which change phases of time and people's thoughts. Here is a letter written by my dad to me the day I missed the McKinsey Shortlist (copy marked to mom):
McKinsey is not fortunate enough to have Praveen in their company.
I know that HR guys don't have the right competency to pick a diamond among stones.
I have a suggestion - If u want go to Harvard or Stanford or MIT or any world class university of yr choice to do another masters then go on.. in the long run it will help u a lot .. U can learn more only when u r young ... take my case - a simple SAP SD certification I am not completing in the last 4 years.
Think again and make a right choice .. take calculated risks... when failures come in yr way , stop for a while , look for its causes , learn the corrective / preventive steps and then bury that failure thought as deep as possible out of mind.
A law graduate after passing out generally thinks how many cases he will get in first year, when he will make 10 lakhs in a year, when he will become a senior lawyer , when judge , when high court judge , when supreme court judge etc etc... But one lawyer in the recent times thought differently at some stage in his carrier and became the first Black President of USA !
Think differently.. even if u fail in the initial years mom and myself can bail u out at least till 2015.. till then never ever give any chance for any negative thought or action to dare or deter at you..By 2015 u would have become matured enough to tackle or tame any situation if u r doing daring things now..
love and best wishes
dad
--- On Fri, 2/6/09, Praveen Dwarakanath wrote:
From: Praveen Dwarakanath
Subject: McKinsey shortlist
To: prabhu_mysap@yahoo.com
Cc: maheswariprabhu@gmail.com
Date: Friday, February 6, 2009, 4:12 PM
I did not make it.
Cheers,
Praveen
What more could one ask for?
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